Always The First Time
Paradoxically, I'm for ever returning to the Place I never left. And Heaven help me if I kid myself that I've travelled that road often enough, thank you very much, and it's high time I settled down comfortably at the comfortable end of it.
What this means in practice is that every time I arrive here is a "first time" - because in fact it's out of time. It means that my disappearing in your favour gets more and more surprising, my single eye opens wider and wider with amazement, and I shall never get used to how my Renault Clio stirs the world as if it were a bowl of porridge. (Douglas Harding. Article: Disingenuous)