Seeing From Source
Diane came to a workshop and discovered that she was, in her words, “seeing from Source”. She said that an immediate benefit of realizing this was when she was with others. Seeing she was face to no-face with them, she found she could be more fully present with them. She wasn’t all the time thinking about what she wanted to say next but was able to listen more deeply to the other person whilst they were talking. She was open and present, taking them in. Then, when she found herself saying something in response, she found her response coming out of the nothingness, freshly, without preview.
I find that, when I am seeing clearly Who's seeing, it is unnecessary - it is fatal to that seeing - to worry about what to say or do, to think or feel: the fitting expression of 1st-Personhood occurs as a matter of course, spontaneously, according to circumstances. The outcome is unpredictable. If it proves unconventional, crazy, shocking, or even wicked by local 3rd-person standards, this can't be helped. In the long run, it is what's needed. I know how to wait, but cease dithering. When they are really required, the right things are done. So I don't resolve in advance not to be unloving and mean and petty and irritable, not to boast, over-eat, steal, flatter, despise, fret, sulk (the list is endless), though it may well turn out that such behaviour doesn't occur when I'm attentive to the Source of all behaviour. If I'm observed to be living up to any 'principles', this is an incidental and external view, for the One here is innocent of principles - and everything else. Nor is this the substitution of the Law of Love for the Ten Commandments. The Void here, which is the Source not only of love but its opposite, knows no law. The 1st Person is a-moral, a-everything. Inevitably, for to prescribe rules to myself is to make a case of myself, to cultivate a face or self-image, to box myself, to become a memory, a 3rd person, a separate thing that is naturally selfish. And, conversely, to be Myself is to be this 1st Person singular who, as consciously identical with all other 1st Persons (not that there are such), is naturally 'unselfish', and whose 'goodness' owes nothing to rules and is truly creative. (The Science of the 1st Person
, Douglas Harding)
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