A method of self-enquiry
pioneered by Douglas Harding
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D.E. Harding





Biography
Moment of Discovery
Harding Articles
Interviews
Workshop Transcripts
The Hierarchy
Reviews of the Hierarchy
Bibliography
Anthology
Photos
The Results of Seeing Who You Really Are
On Being Aware
The Face Game
Solving Problems
The Experience and The Meaning
Confrontation
Harding's Tip
My Special Friend
Discovering Who You Are
Making A Good Impression
The Headless Way
Interview 1977
Interview 1983
Interview 1997
Interview 2000
Personal Identity
Cellular Identity
Molecular Identity
Atomic Identity
Sub-Atomic Identity
The Centre
Human Identity
Vital Identity
Planetary Identity
Solar Identity
Galactic Identity
The Whole
The Youniverse Explorer
Introduction
The Hypothesis
What to Look For
Where to Look
How To Look
Who to Look For
Enquiry
First Person
Peeling the Onion
Core of the Onion
Beheading Yourself
Knowing All And Nothing
Seeing Absence
Travelling the Universe
Moving The Universe
Making Up Your Face
Unmaking Your Face
What Sees
What Sees Hears and Tastes
Who Sees and Hears
Having All And Nothing
Being All and Nothing
Willing All and Nothing
Working Miracles

Harding's Moment of Discovery

Extract from On Having No Head

Douglas Harding

The best day of my life—my rebirthday, so to speak—was when I found I had no head. This is not a literary gambit, a witticism designed to arouse interest at any cost. I mean it in all seriousness: I have no head.

It was eighteen years ago, when I was thirty-three, that I made the discovery. Though it certainly came out of the blue, it did so in response to an urgent enquiry; I had for several months been absorbed in the question: what am I? The fact that I happened to be walking in the Himalayas at the time probably had little to do with it; though in that country unusual states of mind are said to come more easily. However that may be, a very still clear day, and a view from the ridge where I stood, over misty blue valleys to the highest mountain range in the world, with Kangchenjunga and Everest unprominent among its snow-peaks, made a setting worthy of the grandest vision.

What actually happened was something absurdly simple and unspectacular: I stopped thinking. A peculiar quiet, an odd kind of alert limpness or numbness, came over me. Reason and imagination and all mental chatter died down. For once, words really failed me. Past and future dropped away. I forgot who and what I was, my name, manhood, animalhood, all that could be called mine. It was as if I had been born that instant, brand new, mindless, innocent of all memories. There existed only the Now, that present moment and what was clearly given in it. To look was enough. And what I found was khaki trouserlegs terminating downwards in a pair of brown shoes, khaki sleeves terminating sideways in a pair of pink hands, and a khaki shirtfront terminating upwards in—absolutely nothing whatever! Certainly not in a head.

It took me no time at all to notice that this nothing, this hole where a head should have been was no ordinary vacancy, no mere nothing. On the contrary, it was very much occupied. It was a vast emptiness vastly filled, a nothing that found room for everything—room for grass, trees, shadowy distant hills, and far above them snowpeaks like a row of angular clouds riding the blue sky. I had lost a head and gained a world.

It was all, quite literally, breathtaking. I seemed to stop breathing altogether, absorbed in the Given. Here it was, this superb scene, brightly shining in the clear air, alone and unsupported, mysteriously suspended in the void, and (and this was the real miracle, the wonder and delight) utterly free of "me", unstained by any observer. Its total presence was my total absence, body and soul. Lighter than air, clearer than glass, altogether released from myself, I was nowhere around.

Yet in spite of the magical and uncanny quality of this vision, it was no dream, no esoteric revelation. Quite the reverse: it felt like a sudden waking from the sleep of ordinary life, an end to dreaming. It was self-luminous reality for once swept clean of all obscuring mind. It was the revelation, at long last, of the perfectly obvious. It was a lucid moment in a confused life-history. It was a ceasing to ignore something which (since early childhood at any rate) I had always been too busy or too clever to see. It was naked, uncritical attention to what had all along been staring me in the face - my utter facelessness. In short, it was all perfectly simple and plain and straightforward, beyond argument, thought, and words. There arose no questions, no reference beyond the experience itself, but only peace and a quiet joy, and the sensation of having dropped an intolerable burden.

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